Lessons from the Strength Card

The Strength Card from the Modern Witch Tarot

This month as we move into Leo season, we are presented the opportunity to embody the wisdom of the Strength card.  In the Tarot, the Strength card is the card that carries the energy of Leo season. As a Leo, I find that people often simplify the essence of Leo into someone who is boisterous and overbearing, while overlooking the qualities that make Leos great.

The Strength card represents these qualities well.  With Strength we are confronted by our inner beast and how we react when we feel threatened.  It’s a card of advocacy and using your inner fire for good .  It’s an invitation into taming the reaction that comes up when we feel triggered by something.

The brilliance of this card is that it’s an ongoing process.  We get a little better with every opportunity we are presented to practice.  It’s not about the quick, big success but the progress we make over time.  It’s about the baby steps. And, slow and steady progress that delivers us to deeply understand ourselves.

Strength shows us how to cultivate resilience in confronting our own shortcomings and reactions.  It asks us to be loyal to ourselves above all else.  This can be very challenging as it brings us face-to-face with the conditioning we experienced growing up.  

The Strength card confronts us with how we react when we feel threatened.  It asks us to observe what we think about those reactions and what we were taught about them from the time we were young. What were you taught about showing emotion?  What were you taught about your responsibility to stand up for yourself and other people?  Were you taught to ignore bullies? Were you treated as if you were weak or scared because of that reaction?  Did you feel a need to confront every bully and right all wrongs?  Did you enforce your perspective on others?

Strength asks us to stare into the face of these reactions and try to approach them with gentleness and understanding.  Almost as if you are trying to gentle tame a beast.  It still exists but, in what ways can you learn to cultivate the positive qualities of it and ease the vicious ones?

Strength is one of my favorite cards and one I have worked with for a long time.  I consider it a great ally of those with trauma and a fighting spirit.  In moments when I have felt that overwhelming desire to fight back, I have paused and tuned in to that Strength card and asked myself why I’m feeling that way, and if this is something that needs a big reaction.  Sometimes the answer is yes.  Sometimes the answer is no.  But, it’s allowed me to have a greater sense of agency over my reactions and has allowed me to give up the feeling of helplessness that often frustrates me.

For that reason, I’ve decided to offer a two part Strength Card Embodiment Workshop this month.  This workshop is a celebration of resilience and will dive deep into tempering your reactions and meeting yourself with gentleness when you feel triggered. The point of this and other embodiment workshops I have offered is to bring awareness to the wisdom of the physical body.  When we are feeling these emotions and triggers, they also show up in the body and can act as a powerful signal to let us know to pay attention and take action. For most of us, it’s easier for us to recognize the physical feelings in our body than it is to be aware of our emotions. In part 1 on Wednesday, August 12th at 7 PM ET we will discuss theory of the Strength card, practice some embodiment exercises, light movement, guided meditation and journaling. Then, you will have a week to create an intention for our new moon ceremony.

Part two will solidify lessons learned in part one and give us the opportunity to shed the last bits of extra fire we stirred up in part one and will include a New Moon in Leo Intention Setting and Healing Ceremony live over Zoom on Wednesday, August 19th at 7 PM ET.  (If you’re saying, wait Sheila, the new moon is Tuesday, August 18th – I know, but it’s best to wait until the moon moves out of it’s dark phase to set the clearest intentions.)  This ceremony will be an opportunity to get really clear on what you want to cultivate as we close out the Summer.  You can sign up here.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

How to Reflect and Grow with the Tarot

The Wild Unknown Tarot and my Tarot Journal

Tarot is a wonderful tool for reflection is my number one use for it in my own practice.

This week I want to talk about how to reflect and grow with the tarot.  A big part of this is by capturing your readings in a tarot journal.  This will show you different phases of your journey.  We often under-value our progress.  It happens so gradually over time we miss how much we have learned.

That’s why one of my favorite spreads is my tarot for reflection spread.  This spread is designed to bring you face to face with where you are now and what fears might be holding you back.  Often those fears cause contraction that keeps us small and hovering inside of our comfort zone.

One of the great things about the tarot is that it can show us very directly what we think is true and compare that to what is actually true.  Fear often acts as a mask that hides these things from us but in confronting fear head on with this type of spread we can take away it’s power and give ourselves an actionable way forward.

This spread was designed for readers of all levels.  I use it once a quarter just as a check-in for where I am in my life and my business, but I also check in with it if I find myself reading on the same subject over and over. 

I’m sure you’ve been there. Turning a card over, then drawing another, and maybe just one more until you’ve pulled like twenty cards and you’re completely confused.

I get it! We all do it but it can get really confusing if you’re reading on the same exact topic everyday.  

That is why I use my Tarot for Reflection Spread.  I created this spread to help separate fear and anxiety from true intuitive desire. I notice that I have a tendency to get locked into these little anxiety cycles and I struggle to pull apart what is real and true from a story that my anxiety is telling me. I know I am not alone in that and that is what drove me to share this spread.

Using this spread, we start to notice common fears that come up.  This can lead to major breakthroughs.  For example, maybe you notice that every time you approach a new relationship you have a tendency to start comparing it to all of your past romances and sabotage yourself – a real Seven of Swords vibe.  

Maybe you notice that every time you are up for a promotion at work you work you start talking up a peer instead, or deflecting compliments from supervisors because you are afraid moving into a new position will mean failure – a real Moon Card feeling.

This knowledge is power because you will see how you react to fear and what you use as a crutch when you are feeling it.  When we see these behavior patterns, we can interrupt them as they are happening and empower ourselves to embrace the fear as simply more information.  This is the real beauty of the combination of journaling your tarot spreads and regularly using this Tarot for Reflection Spread.

If you would like access to this free offerings, you can find the Tarot for Reflection Spread here.  As always, I would love to hear about your experience, so if you try one of the spreads please, send me an email and let me know how it went (Sheila at starsagespirit dot com) or tag me on instagram (@starsagespirit) and let me know how it went.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

Breaking Up With Your Tarot Deck

The Starchild Tarot Deck – My OG Tarot Go To

I’ve been going through a breakup.  No, not with my partner…with my tarot deck.

Since I started reading, I’ve been relying very heavily on my Starchild Tarot Deck.  I pined after it.  I looked at it on instagram longingly and finally bought it three years ago.  It was truly love at first sight.

Although I learned on the Coleman Smith Rider-Waite, the Starchild Tarot became my go-to for both personal practice and with client readings.  It was my first deck that really worked well, for both and during almost every reading I would hear, “Those cards are beautiful.”

So what changed?

It’s not that I’ve lost that loving feeling.  I still resonate with the cards and I think this deck is STUNNING. (There has not been a reading I have given with this deck where people haven’t commented on how beautiful the cards are.)

But I’ve noticed a shift lately.  The deck just isn’t resonating the way it used to.  I find it harder to relate to.  It doesn’t seem to be able to handle this big pandemic energy.

I have heard other readers talk about this but this is the first time I’ve experienced it personally and I think it’s something that is hard to completely comprehend until it starts happening to you. 

Sometimes I find myself just staring at cards that used to easily trigger my intuition in a second or two and feeling a little bit dumbfounded.

So I experimented a little. I tuned into my intuition and asked which deck I should use at that moment. I switched to the deck that came to mind, just to see what would happen. (Sidenote: I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a moment when I genuinely thought I was losing my intuition. The struggle is real, even for a pro.)

Sure enough, I was back up to speed right away. Things lit up and stood out the way they always do and I had no problem reading for myself or others with it.

I’ve known for a long time that some decks aren’t meant to go everywhere with us and after reading with this one for three years, it might be time to retire it as my go-to.  It could be temporary, as in “We are on a break.”  Or it might be long term, where we see each other occasionally but don’t connect in the same way we used to.

I’m not sure yet.  All I know is that I’m feeling the pull to try something new.

Lately though, I feel myself entering a different life stage and I’m starting to sense that this deck and I need a little break.  It’s okay….it’s mutual…even if it does feel a little sad.  I still get nostalgic for my lovely Starchild Tarot.  But I know this is a time for exploration.  I’m entering a new stage as a person and a business owner.  After all, I turn 35 in a month and I hear that’s when you finally get wise (I’m lying. I don’t hear that. I just want it to be true.)

So if you have been finding yourself feeling like you aren’t quite resonating with your favorite deck anymore, it might be time to see what else is out there.  Open yourself up to new tarot horizons.  You don’t have to drop your favorite deck like a bad habit. It just might be time to allow a new deck and energy into your life.

A little space and a little time might bring you right back to where you started but, we all need a little change sometimes.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

Energy Healing for a Broken Heart

This week I want to talk about one of the common uses of Reiki. I’ve found so often that what I’m doing with this type of energy work is helping grief move through the body.  There are so many forms of grief and they all hang out in our body and clog our energy fields.  

You might notice a certain ache or pain that seems to come up whenever you’re aware of a certain sadness.  Maybe you notice that ache or pain started right after a significant loss. Maybe you notice a certain ache or pain in your body whenever youargue with your partner.

Sometimes we even see grief in our posture.  Maybe we have the sensation that our shoulders are slumped forward or we are finding ourselves with very closed body language whenever someone asks how we are.  This can look like crossing your arms across your chest or hugging yourself like you got a sudden chill whenever someone offers you the opportunity to talk about what you have been through.

When I talk about heartbreak, I’m not just talking about romantic relationships ending, I’m talking about a lot of different types of heartbreak.  Maybe you have ended a relationship with an employer, a family member, or maybe someone passed away.  You might have even had  a bad argument or disagreement with your partner that feels like you have a broken heart.  Heart break isn’t always about endings.

Heartbreak is about us integrating a lesson and allowing ourselves to sit with the pain of losing who we were before, in exchange for stepping into the new version of ourselves. Maybe it’s the version of you that has one less parent, a new career, or more time alone

So how can Reiki help?  Reiki helps to hold space and time for the grieving that you may or may not be aware of. Heartbreak always brings its own dose of grief.  Sometimes we are very aware of its presence and it feels all-consuming.  If this is your experience, Reiki may help you shift some of that weight off of your heart and move you forward towards acceptance.  

If you are less aware of that grief, it could help you confront what you’ve been avoiding.  Clients who fall into this camp often find themselves suddenly in tears at the beginning of the session when I am just doing a check in to see how they are feeling.  Often, we don’t even realize grief until we pause and it has a chance to catch up to us.

A good energy work session is like coming home to yourself.  It resets you back to your baseline.  That is where we find clarity and direction.  

So processing that grief can actually help us see the future more clearly and open our hearts to new possibilities and support that we need to move towards those possibilities.  Grief acts like a kind of fog. When we are grieving, it can feel a bit like slogging through molasses; everything requires more effort.  You might be dealing with brain fog or exhaustion.  This is all very normal.

Our culture is particularly bad with dealing with grief and we often try to rush people through their sadness because it makes us uncomfortable.  I hear clients often express that they “should” be farther along in their grieving process.  “I should be over it by now.”  “I should have moved on already.”

These are sentiments I hear echoed over and over. The truth is that we just need a little more time and space to process.  Grief moves at our pace, not the pace of the world.

Reiki takes that pressure off and is great at moving the grief sensations through the body.  In a session, I give time and recognition to the grief and allow the client to feel it in a safe and controlled environment.  Usually just that recognition is enough to allow the grief to start to move out of the body.  I’ve had clients who have come back after one session amazed at how quickly they felt better.

If you are working through grief or any other emotion and would like to schedule a distance Reiki session, I would love to work with you. You can book a session here.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

Virtual Tarot Parties In the Age of COVID-19

I started reading at tarot parties almost two years ago.  It started as a small part of my practice. I did a girls’ night here, a bachelorette party there.  With everyone at home on lockdowns, this has become such a huge part of my business.

People are missing connection and are tired of just drinking and chatting on Zoom.  I’ve been fielding a lot of questions around these parties so I thought it might be a good idea to share a post about what an online tarot party is like.

I do each party over Zoom because there’s a lot of flexibility through that platform and it’s worked amazingly so far.  The party host schedules the time that’s best with me for groups of 4-11.  Once everyone is on the call, I do a little intro about me and what I do.  Many of my clients are first-timers so they sometimes have misconceptions about what happens during a reading or what they can or can’t ask about.  So I use this time to set expectations and explain how the technology works.

Then, I place most of the group into a virtual breakout room and go into a separate breakout room with the person I am reading for.  They get to have privacy for their reading.  

We typically do a brief 15 minute reading before I swap them back into the other room with their friends and bring someone new in with me. You would be surprised how much you can learn in 15 minutes.  Some people come in with specific questions they want answers on or an area of their life where they are looking for guidance.  Others are just looking for a general reading.

I follow the same process until I’ve read for everyone.

I love this option because it still allows me to do a face-to-face reading and it honestly works the same as it does if the person is physically in the room with me.  COVID-19 has forced us all to be creative but it has also allowed me to reduce my pricing for parties a bit because I don’t need to commute and I can read for anyone, anywhere in the world.  I have met so many amazing people all over this country and even a few in Europe.

When we are finished our individual readings, I bring us all back into the main room and the excitement is palpable. Everyone has their own little reading to chat about.  Usually everyone is having cocktails and really excited about what came up.  Sometimes I answer a couple more questions before I hop off and leave the group to hang out as long as they like.

Especially in the age of so much distance, it’s nice to have something even deeper to connect over.  I am still doing bachelorette parties, girls’ nights, birthday parties; any celebration that COVID-19 has put a damper on, I can help brighten up from afar.

Social distancing has really brought me a newfound understanding of the connection that these virtual gatherings provide for people.  I’ve noticed clients open up to their friends more about what struggles or victories are coming up for them because so often, tarot is validating for people.  After the reading, having the time to go back in and sit with friends and talk about what came up, has opened up whole new conversations for friends.

It’s amazing to see and be a part of these connections. And, at a time when things can feel very heavy, it has reinvigorated my passion for my work..  If you have any questions or are interested in a session you can send me an email at sheila at starsagespirit dot com.  I would love to work with you.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

How Does Intuition Work?

Intuition works a little bit differently for everyone. I will speak strictly from my own experience today. This should in no way be seen as a catch-all.

Since I was really young I have always had a strong connection with my intuition.  My mom would say I was a good judge of character.  She saw that I was selective about friendships and I intentionally sought out kind people (many of whom I am still friends with 25 years later).

The truth is that I always knew stuff about people.  I could see right through.  I was very empathic.  I felt other people’s emotions and intentions, and even before I was totally aware that I was doing so, I reacted to that information.

I describe it to this day as…what people really mean is right behind what they say.  You have probably had the experience yourself, of meeting someone, and knowing they don’t like you.  You know their face is saying one thing but you feel that intuitive impulse that they don’t really mean it.  It’s similar to what we talked about last week.

So when I grew up feeling things from people, like when I was bullied in school, I would be hurt and frustrated but I always knew it was because they were sad, or scared, or embarrassed, and it made me braver.  The more I trusted that feeling, the stronger it became and the easier it was to hear it.

Now that I’m grown, I listen for that same impulse and feeling. I am aware of my intuition in a totally different area in my body than when my brain is actively thinking about something.  When I get that feeling, I pause for a moment and try to listen to what it’s telling me.

Sometimes I ask questions like: Am I feeling fear?  Am I feeling a yes or no?  Am I feeling like I need to wait?

I also have a lot of clairaudience, which means I hear a lot of signals. Sometimes my ears ring when I’m getting a message or feeling.  Or I will know something about someone that will come in as if I’ve heard it. It’s less about actual hearing and more about how my brain becomes aware of it.

Even now I will think sometimes that a client has said something to me, for example, that they are an accountant. I will start talking about their accounting job and they will look bewildered and say “I didn’t tell you I was an accountant.”  I just shrug it off and tell them it happens all the time.

So sometimes that’s how I notice my intuition but there are a lot of different senses of intuition.  I also sometimes physically feel things.  This happens in Reiki sessions most often.  I will start working on someone and notice I’m getting a pain somewhere in my body. Sure, enough when I ask them about it, it’s something that is going on in their body.

I also sometimes have an unexplainable sense of something.  Perhaps I spend time with someone I’m close to and I suddenly know something about them.  It’s not intentional.  It just pops into my head out of nowhere.  I can’t explain why or how.  This can be the hardest sense to hone because we often write off thoughts that aren’t backed up by a story of how we know it or why we know it.  We get stuck in trying to logically figure it out rather than just listening.

I realize you’re probably sitting there thinking, Sheila, that’s just you.  I can’t do those things.  I barely even trust what people tell me.

I understand.  Listening to your intuition is a vulnerable thing.  You open yourself up to something you’re not instantly good at and it can bring up a lot of feelings of inadequacy.  This is why we practice.  

That is the entire reason that I developed my High Priestess Embodiment Workshop.  This workshop is open now.  It is entirely virtual and combines lecture, meditation, journaling and a mini yoga practice to help you get in touch with your own intuition.  You will also have the opportunity to ask any questions that come up and get answers via a Q & A recording after the course closes.  You don’t need any tarot training or understanding as this is an intuition workshop and you have permanent access so you can go back and access it again at any time you need a refresher.  Training is open now but only until July 3rd at 11:59 PM ET.  You can read more about it and sign up here.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

3 Reasons You Might be Afraid of Your Intuition

Last week I was chatting with a friend who was having a hard time in her relationship.  

 “I know, I am ignoring my intuition.  I get an impulse and I dig my heels in and do the opposite.  I feel like I’m afraid of my intuition, is that a thing?”

It reminded me of something that so many of my clients go through.  It’s something I go through all the time.

What happens when our intuition shows up and we feel afraid of it?  So I wanted to dig into this today.  Here are three reasons why you might be afraid of your intuition:

When we experience this there are a few reasons why we might be feeling some fear about trusting ourselves.

The first is that we were taught not to trust ourselves from the time we were young.  

Most of life has conditioned us to outsource our wisdom to people with more experience.  Teachers, pastors, and parents are who we learn to trust first.  We go to school or church, or even at home someone tells us how to get dressed, tie our shoes, count to ten, and we are indoctrinated into a system that teaches us to trust others more than ourselves.

Now, I’m not hating on traditional education but it is only in the past year or two that mindfulness has been taught in schools, giving children a much needed sense of agency and a better understanding of listening to self.

We grow up not really having an understanding of why it’s important to listen to our own intuition because society doesn’t value it.  So when you get an intuitive impulse, you might feel afraid because it may feel like challenging authority.  

Trauma can also be a culprit.

If you experienced trauma in your childhood, in particular, you might have a harder time developing your sense of reality.  If someone was making you doubt yourself constantly as you were growing up, it can be very challenging as an adult to trust your impulses because you’re afraid of being wrong again, or you’re afraid of the consequence of being wrong.

Similarly, if you experienced trauma as an adult, you may have a strong distrust of your intuition because you feel that it led you wrong.  When you start to notice it coming up, you may feel triggered because that sensation reminds you of the bad thing that happened.

This kind of distrust can be hard to break through, but it is UNDERSTANDABLE.  If you find yourself in this place, don’t force it.  Offer yourself compassion in those moments.  There’s no need to be open to intuition if you aren’t ready for it yet.

Being awake to our intuition means having to do something about it.

Ignorance is easy. Being awake is hard. 

Once you pay attention to your intuition, especially if you’ve been ignoring it for a while it can come in more like a flood than a trickle, which is very overwhelming. Our intuition is always asking us to be true to ourselves.

Sometimes that means leaving behind people, places, or work that you have loved for a long time.  Sometimes people you are close with can’t go along with you, or don’t understand you the same way they once did.  No one wants to lose anything and intuition challenges us by pushing us out of our comfort zone.

It’s a bit of a Pandora’s box.  Once you crack the lid, nothing is the same.  It unravels possibilities.

So you might find yourself doing things to block your intuition like constantly having the radio on, or the TV blaring in the background, filling every waking moment with activity, or even abusing substances like alcohol or marijuana to help you tune out and relax.

These aren’t really sustainable options.

The key is learning how to tune in when you need it and tune out when you need a break.  If you can get to a place where you have a good relationship with your intuition it can become like a super power, keeping you on track.  When confusion comes up or when you’re faced with a decision you don’t know how to make, you can tune in and know right away what to do.

You might be saying, Sheila, this sounds really overwhelming.  How can I start to take baby steps to trust my intuition without getting totally overwhelmed?


I’m so glad you asked!  My High Priestess Embodiment Workshop opens next Monday, June 29th.  This course is designed as a beginners guide to intuition and will help you recognize the signals that your body sends you when your intuition is trying to get your attention, how to tune in to the message, and how to stop second guessing yourself.  If you want to stop being afraid and start to trust your intuition, you can sign up here

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

A Witchy Summer Reading List

Peeking my head up since I have been in a little book bubble.  I have been reading up a storm lately and I’ve read some truly cool and witchy books.  I thought it would be fun to put together a witchy summer reading for all of you. These are my favorites that I have tackled this year.

Initiated by Amanda Yates Garcia.  I’m going to try to keep it cool but, I am a total fangirl.  This book is not only incredibly interesting, but also beautifully written.  Garcia tells her coming of age story, raised as a witch on the west coast, and then later, all over.  Her writing is breathtaking and so honest.  I read this book in a day, and if you are a fellow intuitive, you will probably relate to the expression of underworld journeys and struggles with self-doubt.

You Were Born for This by Chani Nicholas.  This book is like a beginner’s guide to astrology and I particularly like the simplicity of Chani’s teachings because I’m somewhat of an astrology beginner.  She also gives you a quick guide on her website to read different aspects of your chart which I found very helpful.  This book is part haunting, self-discovery memoir and part guide to your own personal astrology.  Equal parts heart-breaking and empowering and another one that I read in a day.  The fun bonus of this, is that if you have the birth time and place of friends or loved ones you can also get insights about them as well; perfect for happy hour socialising.

Auras: The Anatomy of the Aura (A Start Here Guide for Beginners) by Eliza Swann.  I heard Eliza on my mentor Sarah M. Chappell’s podcast and I just loved everything she had to say about magic.  This book is exactly as it says, a beginners guide to understanding energy fields and how to read them.  I love the variety of approaches to understanding energy fields in this book. This variety is indicative of an experienced teacher, since so much of energy reading and healing is individual and totally personal.  This book will give you the tools to get started.  While it’s not the lightest read, it offers practical exercises to start developing your skills and I loved all of the diagrams and step by step guides. Also, because of those guides, I do recommend getting the old-school, paper copy of this book so that it’s easier to go back and reference.

Conjure Women by Afia Atakora.  This book is a work of fiction but a beautiful depiction of the way that magic is passed down through generations in a family. Spanning several generations from before the civil war to post war struggles with violence against newly freed black people in the South.  This book paints a beautiful picture of the bonds of women and it made me cry multiple times.

Untamed by Glennon Doyle.  I know, it’s a basic bitch beach read but it is also brutally honest and very well written.  Get ready to laugh, cry, and dog-ear the heck out of what might be the most quotable book I’ve read this year.

The Glass Hotel by Emily St. John Mandel.  This is the first fiction book on the list and while it’s not directly about witchy stuff, it does involve a crime and a character who is haunted by a literal ghost from his past.  (Fun fact: Emily St John Mandel also wrote a book, Station Eleven, about a global pandemic back in 2015, so she may just be a little witchy herself.)

The Fake Date Agreement by Tanya Gallagher.  This is outside of the witchy realm and I admit it, this is a shameless plug for my dear friend Tanya’s book.  We went to high school together in the suburbs of Philadelphia and we have stayed friends since.  Her latest book is joyful and fun and brings total Christmas in July vibes and is perfect for a long day at the beach or an afternoon in your backyard hammock.

That’s all I have for you today.  I would love to hear what’s on your witchy summer reading list.  What did I miss?  Let me know in the comments so that I can add it to my summer reading list.

PS. While I’ve included links to the amazon pages for each book, I recommend ordering through your local bookstore or library rather than putting more money into Bezos’ pockets.

© Sheila Masterson 2020 All Rights Reserved

Speaking on the State of the World Today

As a privileged cis white woman in this world, and especially as someone who does healing and spiritual work, I felt it was important for me to speak to what’s going on in the world.

Until a month ago, most of my clients have been people I know personally, and those who were referred by clients. If you have met me in person, it’s unlikely that you wouldn’t know where I stand on all things.  As a good friend of mine said, “You have no opinion that you don’t feel a need to share.”  Blame it on my Leo sun or my Sagittarius rising or even the call for justice and balance that I get from my libra moon.  I am a woman of conviction and an advocate for those who are oppressed.

But in the past few months I’ve brought in a whole new bunch of clients who have only met me over the internet or through social media posts.  I’ve also seen some people stop following me after all of my sharing of content by black craters and activists this week. 

First of all, let me say that I am ashamed that it might be unclear from my website who I serve and what my philosophy is.  I am embarrassed that it took this kind of violence in the world for me to recognize that I am not as transparent in my beliefs as I think I am. I have not been actively anti-racist and I am pushing myself to do better.

I want to be clear when I say that I believe in the Black Lives Matter Movement.  I have lived a privileged life and I have seen blatant racism play out in front of my face on numerous occasions.  I am horrified by the mass incarceration of black people in this country, the murder of unarmed black men and women by the police, and the casualty with which these things are viewed as someone else’s problem by white people.

I have extensive trauma-informed training that I apply in both my yoga practice and my healing practices but I am continuing to train with black teachers and healers to learn more about being inclusive and understanding forms of trauma that I have not personally experienced.  I know that training from a variety of sources will make a more well-rounded healer and a better ally for black folks in my community.

It is with great humility that I continue to learn from people who are experts in anti-racism work and dismantling white supremacy.  I am continuing to read and reread resources that I have found helpful for understanding and dismantling my own privilege.  I will continue to seek out teachers who teach about trauma-informed practices that aren’t just based on the white experience.  I will continue to learn from mistakes I have made and take correction from people with more experience.

Since the start of the pandemic I have been donating 50% of workshop proceeds to local food banks, but I want to do more going forward.  Because I am still newer to my business and don’t have as much income consistency as I would like, I am looking into ways that I can donate my time and energy.  My goal is to find ways that are long term and sustainable and will grow and scale with my business. 

As it stands, I plan to offer scholarships to workshops and trainings, specifically reserved for BIPOC students.  This is something that I know I can commit to long term and that I can scale as my business grows. I will also continue to donate a percentage of my income to charities like the The Loveland Foundation and Therapy for Black Girls.  Mental health care is particularly near and dear to my heart and an area where black women are underserved.

You will also now find this statement on my website:

As a facilitator of healing, I believe it is my responsibility to stay open and hold space for your experiences without judgement.  My practice is trauma-informed and anti-racist. I accept people of all backgrounds therefore my space is one that is safe for LBGTQIA clients and I strive to be non-harmful toward BIPOC clients.  Know that when you have a session with me, you have no need to explain yourself or defend your experience.  I honor whatever your experience is and I meet you exactly where you are.   Know that wherever you are coming from, whatever pain you are working through, my space is not one where you need to minimize your feelings or carefully select your words.  You can just be who you are.  I am an imperfect person but I continue to learn and grow and I will continue to do my best to make my healing work a place where all people, and especially those marginalized, feel welcome.  I continue to listen deeply and learn from you.

Finally, I would like to offer the following resources for those interested in anti-racism work.

Me and White Supremacy by Layla Saad.  I read this book last year but I am rereading it now and getting even more out of it.  Layla’s work is challenging and confronting and provides real steps for you to dismantle your own internalized white supremacy.

A Lifetime in Quarantine with Sabia Wade (@theblackdoula) – Trauma Skills and Nervous System Understanding for BIPOC.  This training on Somatic Work and Nervous System regulations was presented by all BIPOC teachers and taught me so much about different skills for regulating that were outside of my past trauma and PTSD trainings, which have mostly centered around the white experience.  I cannot express how moving, helpful, and cathartic I found this training to be, even after all of my past trauma experience.  This training is not currently open but when it does open back up I HIGHLY recommend purchasing it.

Skill in Action with Michelle Cassandra Johnson.  This is not a course I have personally taken yet but I have several peers who have and speak very highly of her work.  It is something that is on my list and that I plan on taking by the end of the year.

Thank you all for being a part of my community.  I am honored to continue to do this work.

Why Can’t I Hear my Intuition?

I’ve been teaching my tarot course to a group for the first time ever. Before this I only taught one-on-one but it’s so nice to see how people learn in a group and I have been loving it.

One of the consistent questions that comes up very often is “Why can’t I hear my intuition?”.  Maybe you’ve said something like that yourself.  Or maybe you’ve looked at a professional reader and wondered how they do it.  How do they hear or see something?

Our instinct is always to try harder.  More effort will produce results.  If I just think harder, if I just meditate harder, if I just keep trying, I will make my intuition work by sheer force of will. 

Unfortunately this is the exact behavior that makes it so hard to hear our intuition.

We are conditioned to that.  We grow up believing hard work pays off and if we haven’t seen the results we want then we should just work harder.  It’s okay that our first instinct is to go to our trained behavior.

The truth is that it’s less effort that actually helps.  I think prayer is us asking a question to God, Source, The Universe, your higher self  (pick your fave) and meditation is listening for the answer.  Intuition is what happens in the middle.  When we start to relax, we are able to hear little impulses or messages coming through.

Our only job is to notice what comes up.

The reason it’s so hard for us to hear our intuition is because we are trained to ignore it.  We are trained from the time we are very young to outsource our wisdom.  We go to school and church. We learn from our parents.  All of that is really important.  What we miss out on is the ability to learn and experiment with what is best for us.  We aren’t taught to listen and to hear our own intuition.

I fully believe we can return to this inner hearing with a little guidance and practice.  So often what I’m doing in a tarot or Reiki session is validating what a client already knows intuitively.  They just need to hear someone confirm it so they don’t feel crazy.

If you think that you can’t hear your intuition, I promise that it doesn’t mean that you don’t have it or that it’s not talking to you. 

In fact, I bet I can prove it to you right now.  We are most aware of our intuition when it is trying to keep us safe.  So I bet you have had an experience that you couldn’t explain that goes something like this: You meet someone for the first time and just had a bad feeling about them right away. You don’t know anything about them but something just feels “off”.  They are perfectly nice to you and seem personable and normal. You immediately ignore it and just assume you’re being judgemental or jealous.

And what happens when we get those impulses? We start explaining them away.  Maybe I just saw something that looked off. Maybe it was a coincidence. Our brains are lazy and they want to logically explain things that don’t make sense away.

Maybe you start a friendship or relationship with that person only to find out, a short time later that they are actually manipulative or a liar, or even violent.  Then you blame yourself, for not knowing better because you had that “off” feeling early on and wouldn’t trust it.

So then we end up right back where we started – confused, not trusting our intuition, or just plain thinking we don’t have it.  And the cycle continues until we start to interrupt it and train ourselves to listen to and question those intuitive impulses.


This month I am opening the doors again to my High Priestess Embodiment Workshop that is a training entirely on how to connect to your intuition.  The High Priestess is the card that reminds us of our ability to connect to our intuition in any moment to find what’s best for us.  This workshop is entirely virtual and combines lecture, meditation, journaling and a mini yoga practice to help you get in touch with your own intuition.  You don’t need any tarot training or understanding as this is an intuition workshop.  If you are interested in learning more you can sign up for the waitlist here to be the first to know when the doors open.